Posts Tagged ‘doctor’

Half Blind

June 4, 2010 Leave a comment

I’ve had medical eye problems since I was 21 years old.  Considering the fact that my family’s medical history reads like the annuls of the New England Journal Of Medicine, it’s a small cross to bear.  I have to put drops in my eyes every day.  I had cataracts removed at age 31. No big deal,really.  I have had bee stings that hurt worse than cataract surgery.  Last week, things were different.  Things had never been this cloudy before.  A quick trip to my eye doctor and it was determined that I would need to see a retina specialist because the inflammation was in the rear of the eye.  Again, no big deal.  I was expecting to get a shot in the back of the eye and go about my business.  Tuesday morning, I was hit with the news that my retina was 2/3 detached and it was getting worse.  7 hours later, I’m full of happy juice while the doctor cuts and ties, flattens and squeezes my eye back into shape.  Still no big deal, right?  Pain meds are good.  I will be fine.

The doctor comes in post op and explains that all went well but there is one problem.  Because of where the tear occurred, in order to have a chance of using my right eye again, I will need to keep my head down facing the floor with almost no break for one to two weeks.  This is a big deal.  You see until now, all the outcome was out of my hands.  I can promise you that after two and a half days of this, the complications from leaning forward far outweigh any post op pain or discomfort.  I don’t say this to garner sympathy (although I do like cookies) but rather to explore the comparison of this to our spiritual and mental responses to our condition.

Today, the technician in the office said that some people do not follow the doctor’s orders and their retina detaches days after the surgery.  Tanya could not believe that people would do that.  I can.  I have to purposely make the choice to do something that will cause back pain, neck strain and headaches for over a week.  I can make the pain go away simply by sitting up straight.  I have to choose.  My family has to put up with this big baby that is staring at the floor all day.  But if I just sit up, the pain will go away.  All it will cost me is a blind right eye for the rest of my life.

There was actually one moment where, based totally on current feelings, it was almost worth the cost of the vision to have relief from the pressure in my head.  But James said that to know what is good and to not do it is sin.  If I had given in to my weakness, I would regret it for the rest of my life.  I’m only 36, so I plan on it being around a long time.  My wife has been able to provide the decades long perspective when I’m stuck on the moment.

For the moment, my head is clear and this has made me think about how our life choices affect us and many times, and we do not realize it.  It’s nice to know the consequences.  Keep your head up and be half blind.  Life choices, however, are not usually so clear for us.  It is often said that we cannot choose our circumstances, only our response to them.  The clear lesson for me is that our choices matter.  My doctor could be the world’s expert on retinal reattachment but he cannot make me keep my head down.

We are quick to cry out to God when faced with something tough.   We want God to make life be like a McDonalds drive thru.  I want a number 3 with sweet tea.  Extra ketchup.  Many of you reading this will have varied opinions of God, but think about this.  Do you know a God that controls and manipulates you or do you know a God that gives you free will?  My God let’s me make mistakes.  I have to choose to do what is right.  I have to choose to look past the current and examine the costs of my decision.  After this incident, I will pay even closer attention to those choices because I don’t want to go through life half blind, physically, mentally, or spiritually.


Healthcare Revolution

June 1, 2008 1 comment

Back in 1773, the citizens of Boston threw their tea into the harbor to protest the ridiculous taxes on it.  After watching my father suffer from severe head pain that has reduced a full time pastor with something important every single day to not trusting himself behind the wheel of a vehicle, I believe we need a healthcare provider party.  I’ve got a few things I’d like to throw into a harbor right now. 

Now, to be fair, my father’s medical file rivals by War and Peace in length and drama.  There are certain precautions that must be taken.  However, he has been in constant pain for over two weeks and a couple doctors think they know what is going on, but they do not have the correct speciality to make the pain go away.  In order to get to that specialist, he needs to back to his general physician for another trip so he can get the proper referral.  He’s been there so many times in the last two weeks, he is leading in the polls for May employee of the month. 

I can get a pizza delivered to my house at 11pm.  I can buy a lawnmower at 3 in the morning.  I can get breakfast 24/7.  But to get to the right doctor that can read an MRI, it takes 20 phone calls, two other doctors’ permission, a recommendation letter from my local congressman, and a friend on the inside to work the system. 

I think the blame lies at the hands of the insurance companies.  I could be wrong.  No insurance system is perfect, but at least my car insurance company has to cater to me and not somebody over in the HR department.  Just a thought, but what if we quit tying health insurance to our employers, give us the twelve thousand dollars a year that they spend on my insurance and let me go shopping for my own.  Maybe then, the insurance company can actually let the doctors treat me instead of making them jump through all those hoops. 

Sorry for the rant, just keeping it real…

Being a Computer Geek Is Like Being A Doctor

May 31, 2008 Leave a comment

Before you think that I am getting too self important, hear me out. 

I have never saved a person’s life.  I have not prolonged a life.  I have never helped someone get over a major illness.  I do not drive a Mercedes-Benz and I do not belong to a single country club.  I am, however, treated the same way as a doctor at social events. 

I am not complaining or griping or wishing it all away.  It is part of being a computer geek.  Just like being asked about a scratchy throat is part of being a doctor.  I don’t talk about what I do for money too much in social circles very much.  For one thing, I don’t like self important people so I try to not be one myself.  I am sure I fall short on many occasions.  Another reason is that what I do is not who I am.  Yes, I know that I am a geek and that is part of who I am, but I am more than my job.  If I left my job today, the sun would still shine on my employer.  They might not know how to reboot the sun when it crashes, but eventually, they would figure it out.  My life does not completely revolve around all things computer.  I realize that to hard cores, this puts my geekiness in question, but so be it.  I have a wonderful wife and three great kids.  I enjoy music and watching football and Lord of The Rings, my precious. 

It’s not that I don’t want to answer your questions.  I know why your computer keeps crashing.  It is either Microsoft’s operationg system, the spyware that you have never cleaned up, or the patches that you never installed.  More than likely, it is the last two and not the first one.  I know why you’re computer is so slow.  It is probably one of the answers above or maybe you bought the black friday special at your favorite box store and it doesn’t have enough memory and you’ve installed every desktop pretty picture changer and inspirational screen saver you could find. 

I am used to it.  Go ahead and ask me if you got a good deal on your digital camera.  If you don’t, it will cause you heartburn and you will be looking for your doctor friend.  Just remember to ask about my family first, it cuts down on the sarcastic response that you will get. 

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